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The optimistic pessimist

Attitude Adjustment Day

Yesterday was a low  point for me.  Now it isn’t because it was Valentine’s Day, I am no hater, it is just that this was the day that the “mean reds” crept back into my mind.

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That feeling that the world is closing in on you and it really makes you feel hopeless. It is where the pessimist in me shows up. The anxiety is about all the things you cannot control in your life, but wish that you could.   In this day of social media we are reminded daily sometimes hourly of what others are accomplishing and winning at in life.  I think it really makes it difficult to perceive things in there actual state.  All things look rosy, it’s the way everyone wants to be portrayed.  Everyone posts their best! With even their worst looking pretty damn good!  Although I know this to be true, I have to say it does add to my mood of the “reds” and then of the “blues”.  This only adds fuel however, to the mad, sad, anxiety I am battling.  It is not the cause of it.  Today I decided, I need to come up with five things to be thankful for right now.  A different blog perhaps, I will be more forthcoming with what specifically is darkening the corners of my mind, but today these are the things I will focus on to adjust my thinking.

  • My feet have touched the floor for the day, which means I can choose to do something productive.
  • At this time I am cancer-free and have been for 1 1/2 years.
  • I have a warm house and food in my fridge.
  • Both of my parents are still living, as are my brother and two sisters.  I have a husband and two daughters.  Although family is a huge anxiety ridden stress, I wouldn’t want to not have any of them here.  With more time there can always be a change in them and in me too.
  • I am writing this blog on a Monday morning, when I would normally be headed to work but I have the week off for winter break.  I can get this attitude adjustment at the top of my week and maybe the rest will feel more hopeful.

For today I will remember to have a heart of thanksgiving.  If I can recite my list in my mind then my mood will come to pass.

Seeing Audrey Hepburn in the Gif made me smile!  I love Breakfast At Tiffany’s and any other movie of  Audrey Hepburns.

Be Well –

JustLorelei 67

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Do We Share Any of These Fun Facts?

Day two of the blogging challenge and I barely have time to write, but I want to make sure to get this out tonight!

20 Fun Facts

  1. I am 5’2″ (shawty)
  2. Breast cancer survivor for 1 1/2 years
  3. One of my favorite actors is Audrey Hepburn and I simple adore the movie Breakfast At Tiffany’s.
  4. I dressed up like Dorothy, from The Wizard of Oz five times for Halloween
  5. The youngest of four, three girls, one boy.  If you are the baby in the family, you rock of course!
  6. I have been a non-smoker for 25 years.
  7. In middle school and high school I played the flute.
  8. One time while I was in NYC on business I tried on some haute couture on Fashion Avenue in Manhattan.
  9. In the past I completed an online writing course studying writing for children’s literature.
  10. I secretly want to paint a fabulous picture sometime.
  11. My college year found me at Lowthian College for Fashion Merchandising (Loni Anderson was an alum).
  12. Once I drove in a demolition derby. I had a light blue cougar on which I painted Laurel and Hardy! 🙂 No powder puff racing for this girl!
  13. At the age of 20, I participated in the Ms. Minnesota pageant (refer to fact #1, what was I thinking)
  14. I have an annoying habit of trying to finish other people’s sentences for them.
  15. Analytical to the core, there is nothing I like more than to ponder the heck out of everything.
  16. My mom and I talk on the phone every day!  I love that woman!
  17. I love cats and have two of them, Friday and Chester.  They will no doubt be featured in here sometime.
  18. I am in the midst of tidying my life and have a copy of the book, the life-changing magic of tidying up by Marie Kondo.  I will definitely be including some entries about my pursuit of tidying using the KonMari Method.
  19. My mental health checker is running and working out!  It gives me balance and prevents me from blowing a gasket!
  20. Happily, I would pack my bags today, if someone handed me a ticket to travel the globe.

These are a few facts about myself. Leave me a fun fact about you!

Cheers! JustLorelei67

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One of my fur pals, Friday a.k.a. Frankie!

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